Precious Jewel
September 1989
To my Princess,
Falling in love is like peering into a deep well.
Seeking to catch a glimpse of its bottom depths and then grabbing hold of a Precious Jewel.
A Precious Jewel it appears from far away as I peer through the darkness to discern its true nature.
Ponder and analyze, remain objective.
Remember what happened before when you grabbed hold of something that was not there.
The last jewel you encountered had a power, such deep joy it yielded, you thought it was genuine.
And pain, such great pain, deep in the heart it ached without remission.
Without remission your heart ached when you realized the Precious Jewel could not be reached even with outstretched hands, remember?
I yearn for the Precious Jewel deep down at the bottom of the well. Careful, keep your distance, but it shines so brightly, sparkling.
Look!, it winked at me.
So lonely, the Precious Jewel must be seeking for companionship. Hold your heart still Precious Jewel!
I am coming down for you, falling down the channel of your well.
Behind me is my forsaken foundation where I was lonely, yet secure emotionally on solid ground.
I have left it all for you Precious Jewel, my heart is openly exposed, take me in from the cold of my sorrow.
A warrior without armor I am.
I have laid aside my superficial hard shell. My fall is complete, there is no turning back. How lonely you must have been all alone. Allow me to massage the pain from your heart.
A jewel box I will be in place of this dark forbidden well, and inside of me you will dwell happily.
I myself cannot scale this towering wall of brick that encircles us; but together we can reach the top, and once again, with you in my palms, we will be on solid foundation.
Come!, let us go Precious Jewel, a whole future awaits us. Precious Jewel where are you?
This tin cannot be you, can it?, this copper penny? Precious Jewel!, please rescue me from the pit of this well.
Once again, my eyes have perceived what does not exist and my mind has captured the illusion.
Hoping you will prove to be my one and only Precious Jewel
I love you, Papo